Allowing is easy, Resistance causes pain

Yesterday morning, I started having major stomach cramps...

...so acute that every one left me in tears...

The whole day I resisted... I started fearing every cramp... the more I resisted, the more it pained...

My body started to break up... every joint started to pain... not a mild pain, but so bad that every movement and every muscle spasm, every cramp left me breathless...

Mind started running in 100 directions... I started to recall the symptoms of covid... it was as if I was trying to find some... where there were none...

Don't know how I slept, dozed, cried and winced in pain all day and all night.

Had a meeting at 7.30 am. With no energy, to get out of bed, I told myself, if I can't practise what I preach, then I am the biggest hypocrite...so I attended..

Today, between loose motions, slight body ache, the cramps and the weakness, my spirits are high...

Am with my body, allowing all that I have to let go, the pain, the hurt, the fear, the anxiety... to let go...

I am fine and I am blessed... Till I am alive I will live... when it is written, I'll go but not a moment before...

So in this moment, I am fully with my pain, rejoicing it coming up in my life.. only so that I may allow it to go...